Tough Decisions

We've had some tough decisions to make this past week. 

The first one involves Amelia's food.  I've been having a rough time nursing.  My supply isn't there and I'm so stressed out all the time that I just can't keep up enough for her.  It's been very frustrating and I did get help but it only worked for so long.  I was beginning to feel like I'm in a sinking ship and I was going down with it.  This has been the hardest choice to make as a parent so far.  As much as it made me feel like a failure I decided it would be better for us both if I stopped and switched to formula.  I needed to be a better less stressed out momma for my baby.  Not only have I been happier, but she has too.  Maybe it's because she's getting the amount of food she needed or maybe it's because I'm happier.  I'm willing to bet it's both. 

Decision number two involves our kitties.  I have always loved cats and love our two cats we have right now.  It's hard to believe we've already had them for 5 years.  As embarrassing as it is I have to confess they've been peeing around the house.  At first it was just by the back door at our apartment.  When we moved to our house it was the same thing but over time it has gotten really bad.  It's by every door, on the carpets, and all around the basement.  Now they're even doing it in front of us and it's pretty easy to see that this issue is behavioral and not some physical inability to make it to the box.  All I keep thinking about is Amelia will be crawling someday soon and I don't want her around that.  So we found a farm that will take them, and they'll be outdoor kitties now.  I'll miss them, but in the end they are just animals and maybe in the future we can try having cats again.